Noticing old feeling’s returning

[Juliet]

Hi guys,

I’ve been feeling pretty down over the last couple of months. Not as down as I have been previously it’s just that I can’t seem to shake it.
The last couple on days I’m beginning to feel overly angry or hurt about things other people have said. 
I feel like this is me sinking further as it’s how I’ve felt in the past and it worries me.

I’m finding it really hard to get out of this funk I’m in and feeling slightly crazy and emotional.

Thanks for listening. 

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[tyme]

Hey @Juliet ,

Hearing you my friend. Sounds like you are pretty in tune with what's going on which is definitely a start!

Do you think it is a sign of depression? Or has something happened that has triggered these feelings?

[MJG017]

Hi @Juliet 

I know that feeling of just not being able to shake this nagging feeling that something worse is coming but not knowing when or why.

I try to acknowledge what i'm feeling especially when it comes to my reactions to things others have said or done to me.  I try to work out i'm just being overly sensitive or do I have legitimate reasons to feel hurt or angry.  I feel like I tend to assume I overreact to a lot of things when I'm feeling down, so trying to be honest with myself and work out which feelings are more justified that others, helps me get a bit of clarity and just take some of the load off my mind.

As @tyme suggested, the fact that you realise what is going on is a positive sign that you can stop this slide before it becomes much worse.  I know I've noticed that things recently that get me feeling down again, worry me, but then I remember that even 6 months ago, those same things would have sent me down much worse and much faster, so I take the fact that that doesn't seem to happen as much now as a good sign of progress.  A big part of that has been reaching out and talking to people when I start to feel it... something I wouldn't have done before.  So again, I see you talking about it here, as another positive sign that you're probably in more control that you give yourself credit for.

We all have these days were we feel low and I try to look at it as not a step backwards at all, but just a low day or two, and take confidence that I feel better equipped not to work my way out of it without it getting too bad now.  Like distractions, with doing something I enjoy, work much better now than they would have earlier in the year and just having a bit more trust in myself and knowing that it's okay to feel down sometimes because things can be difficult and none of this is easy, but remembering progress I have made and take confidence from that.

So I think it's okay to feel how you're feeling but try not to add more to the pile by adding worry about whether things may get worse.  Hopefully just taking about it is helpful and it passes soon and you're feeling better about things soon.

[Juliet]

Hi @tyme

Yes I have wondered the same. Over the last couple of months I’ve been through some times of feelings down due to having medicines prescribed that can cause depression and suicidal ideation which they did! Once I went off them though the thoughts went away which I assumed they would. 

I’ve been trying for a while to still do the things I want to do and have had to admit I’m just not as capable anymore. When I try too much I get overwhelmed with stress and can think of nothing else. Recently so bad that some of my hair has started falling out 😕

So yes admitting I’m not as mentally strong is a blow for me and hard to take. 

There are other things too like both of my parents’ aren’t always well, feeling a bit isolated, gaining lots of weight from quitting smoking.. you know, life 😄

I’m going to be starting at the gym on Monday so hoping that will give me a bit of a lift. 

Thanks so much for your message. Very insightful! Haha 

Always open for any advice!