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[tyme]

Oh my dear @Shaz51 ,

So sorry to hear. DO you have dialysis?

[Shaz51]

Yes @Captain24 , @BlueBay  xx

Mr shaz can not cope with pressures, changes and I do everything now 

Don't like seeing  him soo low

hoping as long nothing else happens in the next few days he will be OK 

[Shaz51]

No dialysis yet @tyme 

The function has to go down to 15% but I have had a fistula mapping done 

[tyme]

Hugs @Shaz51 . You are such a strong and brave person. I really admire you.

[Shaz51]

Aww thanks @tyme but inside I am actually screaming 

Trying to stay calm for Mr shaz-- that is hard 

I have had crying moments where tears just flow 

And now I can't tell things to mum any more which is sad 

[tyme]

Bottling everything up inside you can be so painful and potentially not helpful @Shaz51 . Please use this space to let some of it out so that you will be able to continue supporting Mr Shaz and Mum. 

Remember, you are human. You have feelings and I know you are going through a lot.

Holding your hand through this.

[Shaz51]

Thank you @tyme ❤

I will and thank you for holding my hand 

Did not sleep well last night , hopefully I will sleep tonight 

[StuF]

Hey @Shaz51 

Just popping in quickly, but wanted to say I'm thinking of you, Mr shaz and your mum...You're all doing it so tough 😞

Sending hugs x

[Dimity]

Sitting with you @Shaz51 . I hope you're well in yourself and not in too much pain or discomfort. 

I hear you re Jobseeker - but is DSP possible for either of you? 

I'm sorry there's uncertainty again about where your mum will go, especially if she's aware and worrying about that too. 

Biiiggg hugs my dear, you can only do what you can do. Hopefully the gp is monitoring mr shaz now he's back on ADs to see he's going ok . Could they refer you to a local counsellor? 

Above all @Shaz51 you're not alone, you have extended family and forum friends. 

Take care

Dimity

[tyme]

I'll pray for you to have a good sleep too @Shaz51 .

Hugs xxx