Writing As A Form Of Therapy

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Former-Member .... 👋💕

[Mazarita]

Moods sliding

feeling my feelings

must have been numbed

before this new dose.

Anaesthesia can be

a blessing bestowed

on we whose emotion

is too hard to swallow.

But waking is welcome

when the body can move

again, be more lively

than long waking sleep.

Balance as always

so hard to find

and then to maintain

a tightrope existence.

[Bubbles3]

Wind whistling,
Snow glistening,
We try not to,
But we're all listening.

Loud screams,
Bad dreams,
It's very far,
But close it seems.

Sad day,
Lost our way,
All we can do,
Is simply pray.

Innocence gone,
Life no longer long,
We may not know,
But we're all doing wrong.

Joy lost,
The Holocaust,
We look to see,
Hearts covered in frost.

Wars fought,
Sins taught,
Making mistakes,
Hoping not to be caught.

Not taking blame,
Pushing for fame,
As advanced as we are,
We're still all untamed.

Too much pride,
Needing a guide,
We will deny it,
But behind lies we hide.

Hurting others,
Betraying brothers,
Many forgetting,
To appreciate mothers.

Lies are fed,
Filling heart and head,
Through all of these years,
Innocent blood has been shed.

Children abandoned,
Lonely and stranded,
We're all wasting the life
That we have been handed.

Taking from the poor,
We're loving no more,
Fight to be free,
End up starting a war.

People starting fights,
No longer enjoying the sights,
While mere mortals are taking
Our God given rights.

Soldiers killed,
Void can't be filled,
Pay close attention,
For pure souls have been tilled.

Need to find peace,
Work together like geese,
But greatest of all,
The hate needs to cease.

[Bubbles3]

The knot is strong,
The strings are tight.
It won't break loose,
No matter how much I fight.

The grip is fierce,
Disguised in every tear.
I wish to overcome
This emptiness of fear.

I know once on my own,
I might not survive.
But there is a mere chance
For me to be alive.

The cost of losing the bond
Could be my biggest mistake.
But I am done living
A life I can no longer fake.

[Former-Member]

I want to say something
but I don't know what
It feels like a desperate need
But it's something I haven't got

Somethings eating my mind
from deep on the inside
Is it cruel to be kind
Is my goodness, evil implied?

There's another person inside me
A person I can't control
I have to follow them, I have no choice
I  have to do as I'm told

I don't hear them or see them
not any more
But just glimpses of them scare me
I don't want to be like before

So I battle the daily patterns
eating, drinking and sleeping as well
& all the charming embarrassing stuff
going to the toilet is a constant hell

& I choose to see what good there is
especially when it seems outweighed
I have learnt to seek out positive
when I have nothing but dismay

This time my other me did the right thing
took the dogs to the beach
Let me see the sea

But trust is still an issue, with me
when it comes to me.

[Mazarita]

SAFE

in my skin

living on a flight path

stepping out

being seen

in nature

or cars

airplanes

in here

behind glass

whispering

smiling

with bitch face

numb

alive

asleep

blinking in and out

here

[Silenus]

I'm all for having real conversations about mental health...

I'm bipolar. I have been ignorantly struggling with this for most of my life. The depressions are crushing, and the highs are way too much for a mere mortal brain to handle.

But you don't know to seek help, because it's all you've ever known. It's your "normal". You think that everyone else must be the same. And so you think you're being weak and stupid when you just can't cope any more. Suck it up, and bloody carry on regardless, you wimp.

You push on. Eventually, without fail, you break. Badly. And often very messily, with a lot of collateral damage to loved ones.

Without the conversation, there is no way to know that your "normal" is actually way off normal healthy means.

How to live with mental health issues is key... both for the "sufferer" and the loved ones around them.

Having conversations is the start of it all. How are you? How am I? Is this "normal"?

[Silenus]

Hello everyone...

I hope to respond to peeps in the next few days... so much amazing and soulful heartfelt writing... thank you all for sharing your words and your heart's and head's delight, respite, pain and travail...

It's been a rough trot lately... physical issues triggered a very brutal depression... body and mind... the physical and mental... ever linked...

Hugs and happy vibes beaming to you all... 🙂

[Mazarita]

Hi @Silenus, always good to see you. Hugs!

Sorry to hear you have been through a rough period lately, with physical and mental health. Brutal depressions, I know them well. Fortunately not lately. Body and mind is so linked, totally agree. But it sounds like you are back from the worst of what you were experiencing, even if there's always struggle and hardship on your journey. Look forward to hearing more wise words from you, when you are ready.