Writing As A Form Of Therapy

[Silenus]

Hi Maz... @Mazarita

Hi all...

Lovely to feel the love... hugs to all...

So anyhoo... long story short... got gastro real bad whilst down at work. Normally, gastro lasts 2 or 3 days. Mine lasted 12 days. In that time, I lost 14kgs...

Serious physical trauma... triggered mental trauma...

Funny holistics...

Then I aggravated the 'rroids down below, and have been on waiting list for a procedure and colonoscopy for a couple of months.

Haven't been able to drive the thousands of kms per week I was doing for work, so have had to rely on infinite patience of the dude I'm contracting my services to.

Then depression knelt down before me and punched me right in the beans, good and hard...

Ouch...

Self-medicated just a smidge too much, but the important thing is that I survived it...

Yay... woot woot...

Hugs to all...

[Mazarita]

Glad to hear you have survived it all okay, @Silenus. Hope you don't need to rush back to work too soon. Ciao for now and more hugs. Maz 

[Silenus]

On Ganglia and Other Diverse Matters
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Dopamine
Don't be mean
With dark thoughts in substantia nigra
Learn to become addicted to your rewards

[Silenus]

@Former-Member

Dopamine is a natural biochemical produced in the brain and other parts of the body. It is not a medication.

Please reinstate my poem.

[Former-Member]

Hi @Silenus,

There was a need for clarification as to your use of that term and which has been reviewed and reinstated. 

Appreciate your understanding here,

Lauz

[Silenus]

Thank you kindly, @Former-Member

Hugs and happy vibes beaming your way... 🙂

[Silenus]

Sometimes I am a billion lightyears away from everything and everyone, breathlessly floating in the dark and cold empty void between galaxies. This is just the tiniest part of what it is to suffer through depression, isolated by the tyranny of distance even in a crowded room...

For those who may be concerned by such words, rest assured that I am not currently depressed. Words do not flow then. When I am quiet, that is when I suffer most. Most animals are like this. It is only nature after all...

When I write of the bad times of the mind, it is always much after the fact, once my head and my heart have processed the latest struggle. It is a complicated thing, this up and down meandering journey, and needs to be processed before it can be described...

[Silenus]

I like looking at pictures of my eight year old self. The look of innocence and pure unadulterated joy of life shines from those young uncrinkled eyes. Fast forward thirty-nine years. The innocence is well and truly lost, the crinkling of the eyes is a measure of smiles and grimaces alike, and, thankfully, through much personal effort and growth, an adulterated joy of life still shines through...

[Silenus]

If you are caught doing wrong, do you feel most caught or most wrong? The private honest answer to this question speaks volumes about your character...

[Silenus]

The Devil's Advocate's Nuts
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I punched the devil's advocate right in the beans,
He had no idea of what right and wrong really means;
All of the negative stuff spouting from his lips,
Too loose by far, sinking a whole fleet of ships.