Writing As A Form Of Therapy

[BlueBay]

Oh @Silenus

now i am crying.  your writing is so much what I am in at the moment.    not sure if yuou realised but i changed my name on here from (sadgirl) to bluebay . supposed to be a positive step - nothing positive at the moment. 😞

thank you for your kind words and hugs. xxx

[Silenus]

Alas I have been withdrawn in my own inner worlds, so I did not notice your name change...

I love your new name... aspire to it and become it... eventually the darkness lifts...

Gentle hugs @BlueBay

[Faith-and-Hope]

Beautiful poems both @BlueBay @Silenus ....

Sending you love and hugs .... ❤️❤️

[Silenus]

In the space of a week, I found out that my GP had been diagnosed with cancer (unsure of the type... bowel perhaps... all cancer is nasty, but some more than most...)...

Weeks to live...

Then I get a social media tingle about my GP being missing, and family and police were appealing for info to try and find him...

Then 2 days later... a report he had been found dead nearby where he disappeared, treated as unsuspicious...

I mourn the passing of this gentle healing man... he was my lovely partner's family doctor for 30 years, and he was my GP during the most traumatic couple of years of my life...

He had suffered from depression... from breakdowns... he like no other GP understood both my physical and mental health issues, and helped me jump through the hoops of the system to get connected to the right help...

It would not be wrong to say that this man helped save my life at just the time I needed it most...

I wish him peace, and send much love and warm gentle hugs to his loving family...

My GP was a gentle man of healing, smart and compassionate... he understood pain in a deeply personal way from his own experiences of it, and he responded to pain with love and compassion...

It was an honour to have met you sir... my life is much the richer, as witnessed by my current deep grief...

I do not fight it... it is natural... let it wash over you as a healing sign of respect...

Hugs and happy vibes beaming to you all from tear-brimming eyes this fine night...

[Former-Member]

Hi @Silenus

That is a beautiful tribute to your GP

He sounds like an amazing & very caring & compassionate Doctor.

My heart breaks for him and you too- I don't know what you are feeling but I suspect you hold a soft spot in your heart for him because of the relationship and connection you had with him. With is love and care he gave you, you would be a better because your lives crossed paths with each other- I believe in that. Honor is life by celebrating is life and helping others like he did- the world needs more people like him. And he will live on through you and by keeping is memory alive.

I also had a similar Dr like this @Silenus he was actually a specialist who helped me immensely and changed the course of my life, and by the way he treated I was able to help others in a similar way. I was able to pay it forward. This Prof will always be someone I hold in high regard and hold close to my heart.I remmeber a time when I was really unwell and I had very bad experience at a hospital and when I next spoke to the Prof he said why had I not called him- my response was that I didn't want to bother him. Just those few word made a huge difference to know someone was there and supported me unconditionally and that in itself has the power to heal people because of the connection and trust we had in our relationship.

[Appleblossom]

So true and important to honour our grief and not sweep it under the carpet.

I had a GP like that @Silenus who saved my life and my son's, through his gentle, intelligent, socially and medically aware practise. Yes I was devastated when he became too ill to keep his patient load.

Sorry your man suffered in that way. Perhaps there was his own dignity and choice not to go with the general palliative approach.

[Faith-and-Hope]

❤️ @Silenus

[BlueBay]

Sending love and hugs to you my friend @Silenus 

[Former-Member]

So sorry to hear @Silenus
Wow you were sure blessed to have known such a man.
Take it easy silenus ❤

[Silenus]

Hello good peoples...

I have withdrawn into my writing... I'm writing a fantasy trilogy at the moment. I'm about 120 pages into it, and have nailed down the major characters, the major movements of plot and a few sub-plots, and have most of the major themes, sub-themes and imagery all worked out...

Currently, I am writing a lot of dialogue...

Very enjoyable...

I plan on having the trilogy finished in the course of the next 9 months or so...

Of course, there are a lot of parallel projects that I'm also working on... the joys of being bipolar and hypomanic... hahaha...

I figure that if I write 5 pages each day, every day, I will have 35 pages written in a week... 140 pages written in a month... 420 pages written in 3 months... my trilogy would be complete in 9 months... just like having a kid... hahaha..

These worlds I weave... they are a fun escape, but there's also lots of important serious stuff in there as well... it's part fantasy novel, part self-help book, part philosophy text...

Mostly, it's a lot of fun to write... I hope it will be as fun to read as it is to write...

Hugs and happy vibes beaming to you all... 🙂