Just checking in.

[Mazarita]

You guessed right about the quiet day today, @CheerBear. I'll probably just mainly let the bigness of the experience yesterday settle into place, do some things on the computer, a few domestic things, and otherwise take it easy and go with the flow.

I've caught up on your posts in this thread from yesterday. Good to see you getting loving support here. More hugs to you for this rough time. 

[CheerBear]

Sounds like a pretty good day ahead @Mazarita. Mine will be all about December stuff today as part of tradition in our little family. It started early with excited little feet running to find a special delivery of gingerbread house kits and (way too many) lollies for decorating them. I shared in the excitement until the smell of the sweet sickly treats made me actually sick. They've been asked to eat a real breakfast before they dive in which I'm hoping buys me some time for my anti-nausea med to kick in.

So thankful for this space and the amazing people here. Yesterday was definitely not my best day but the sun has risen and with it a new day has started 🙂

[Mazarita]

What a blessing a new day can be, @CheerBear. 

Wonderful that the seasonal family excitement is starting to build up at your place now, especially for the little fish, though I feel for you a lot with the ongoing nausea. I've read about your xmases before and often thought it would be great to have a mother like you, so creative and caring. 

[CheerBear]

That's a lovely thing to say and hear @Mazarita thank you 😊 I feel strange with it all this morning as I sit with my decision knowing the plan was close this chapter starting this morning. Thinking of that with a heart bursting with love for the giggling happy little crew, doesn't work within me. Even silly things like tinsel and carols at the supermarket are triggering big emotions, tears and confusion for me. December is full of big stuff as it is and the timing with what is happening is not OK, though rarely are timing and I friends either. I was so close to taking the first tablet this morning but deep inside I know if I can hold off and tolerate the discomfort just a bit longer and give myself some time to find some peace either way and make a decision I am confident about, I'll be better off.

Thanks for listening Maz. I'm going to jump in the shower and encourage cereal and toast instead of candy canes 😉 and hope this sick passes.

So cool to hear you had a good one yesterday. I'll keep an eye out on another thread to see if you post anymore about it. Hope today is the right kind of day for you. Big hugs ❤

[Mazarita]

@CheerBear, I think you are wise to take a little longer with this decision, so that it is less sudden and more considered. As you say, it is more likely to sit well with you in the long run if you do that, and it seems you do have the time (though I get how tempting it might be just to get rid of the nausea!) Supporting you either way, all the way. 

Hope the day is very kind to you and the fish, CB, and thanks for being here for a chat this morning once more.  

[outlander]

Just popping in quietly to say goodmorning to you both @Mazarita @CheerBear ❤

[CheerBear]

Good morning lovely (as I sit here procrastinating/enjoying the peace of the morning). I've been starting and not finishing a post to you since yesterday afternoon @outlander. I know you're having lots of jumble and shaky and get how hard that can be. Biggest love to you ❤

[outlander]

That was a warm fuzzy feel post! @CheerBear thank you 💚

Your morning sounds peaceful ( for now lol) ive got some lorikeets outside chirping away which is nice usually we dont have morning bird sounds.

Thank you for understanding and its ok about posting. Theres no pressure at all.

Lots of these to you ❤❤❤🌈🌈🌈🌈

[CheerBear]

Lovely about the lorikeets @outlander. I'm in the garden at the moment with some warm sun shining through under the lemon tree. It is my little piece of peace in what is otherwise loud and busy. I've pulled out and de-spidered the boxes of sparkly christmas goodies (crap lol) and shaken off the tree which is in the driveway airing out. The kids are watching TV together, something they rarely do (the free to air TV part as it is usually devices). It reminds me of Saturday morning cartoons with my siblings 🙂

[outlander]

That sounds like a wonderful place to be sitting @CheerBear by what youve said youve a lovley garden too.

Im glad you gotten rid of those unwanted creatures. Not such a nice surprise when they run out lol. Ive barely got my act together this yr. Im usually the chrismassy type too. LF are lucky to have you which btw they are sounding pretty cute watching tv together.