SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)

[soul]

Hey @Former-Member - thanks for sharing. Sometimes it's nice to just get it out there. Sounds like you're doing the best that you can which is a whole lot more than the siblings are. Will they appreciate it - maybe, maybe not. But you can have a clear conscience that you did all that you could for your Mum and Dad. I always felt that it was an honour to have done that for my parents.

I lost my uncle last week so that is the end of that generation of rellies.

I hope you are also taking care of yourself. The shoulder problem sounds ouchy, especially as the colder weather is upon us. Keep warm and try to find even just a bit of joy in each day. Are you still walking the dogs?

[Appleblossom]

Sorry you have had a recent loss @soul.

@Former-Member Glad you sorted out the laptop/cash issue its important to get things straight in our own minds.  Life is crazy enough.  Your family has had a lot of trauma and all you can do is your best AND be calm with it.

I am a bit under the weather atm. Will come good in a couple of days.

[Shaz51]

hugs my @Former-Member

[outlander]

@Former-Member
hoping your appt was ok today and your feeling alright?...

[Shaz51]

how did you go today @Former-Member xxxxx

[Former-Member]

Thanks for asking @outlander and @Shaz51, restless night >> 7am srgnt mjr nurse today - 'piic pic ' always feel inadequate after her. >> sorted dads b'fast & sat down to have mine but - 🔔 linen pickup guy 😱forgot, got smelly hands rushing wet kylies & towels out to him and sat down to finish breakky. <br>Entering diary but Respite nurse arrives 1/2hr early again - i wasnt ready and of cause that really anoys me. And this one wont do dishes or anything but sit watch dad, so i have to race round doing catchup before going out to my respite. It flusters me - I'm so not a morning person. <br>- raced up friends for coffee<br>- left my prescription sunnies there but she cant find 😞    >>  lost a keycard & had to report it stolen 😞 - 2:30 got shakes so late lunch >> thats when i found keycard missing & went to bank all flustered >> then rushed home to dad, nurse had gone, he needed changing help >> gave him Afternoon Tea, didnt finish mine as had to rush off to >> my psych apt - she was running 1/2hr late. Had no idea what i was gonna talk about but yep - all the superficial ssues about dad and siblings really 😞 she didnt ask about the waves of SI & fladhbacks which i thought we were suppose to be working on. A young family went in after me. Person before me came out sobbing. >> saw the GP for new careplan for another 4 visits =10 & abdo U/S results - got referral to gynae for biopsy (honedtly gonna forget all that) >> dark outside by now so grabbed fish+chips takeaway for us

>> home dad ok >>  fed dogs & cat >> started feeling really aggitated >> asthma attack so puffer & laydown for me - fell asleep typing this >> 1hr later dad came woke me talking gibberish & had to go sort all that out which not sure i did >> crashed / slept another 2hrs >> got up to help dad to bed >> 

Just really aggitated today,  putting it down to lack of sleep and feeling out of control... Mixed bag of feelings really,  especially when shopping centre rang to say -🎉 i won 🎉 $200 🎉giftcard 🎉

[Shaz51]

ohh wow @Former-Member, what a big day

sending you knowing hugs as I have had a big week too

how is today going xx, we woke up at 10am this morning -- wow , we must of needed it

just having breakfast now after doing my sugar level

Hello @outlander, @Appleblossom, @soul

[Appleblossom]

 Hi @Shaz51 Hope levels are alright.

@Former-Member What a crazy day. It hardly sounds like respite.  We gotta take the god with the bad .. and keep rolling along.

I have son gf over. just did some houdehold stuff and doing some music.

Hi @outlander

[Former-Member]

Told ya i was feeling agitated 

Betta go off line sort myself out before i say something really bad.  Good night beautifuls 

[Appleblossom]

Feeling just just a cog in the system does not usually help.

@Former-Member

Have a decent night. 

I need to log off soon.

Post when you are up for it.