SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Maggie @Adge. 

Its hard navigating the forums sometimes. My 'Depression Dementia Dad' thread is on the carers side Adge, though not been there for a few days. 

I'm im bed, listening to dad moving about (need to go help shortly i think). Made it to church but not much elsw today 

[Adge]

Oh, so that's why I couldn't find it @Former-Member

I only searched on this side.

It's so hard to find things, at least for me it is....

I usually only find a thread, when someone tags me into it.

Adge

[Maggie]

@Former-Member I'm guessing the tiredness is still hanging around you. Being a carer is hard work, stating the obvious there. I hope you get some you time. Just dropping in a hi.💕💜🌷🌷

[Former-Member]

Yes @Maggie, i get very tired. Do you live alone?  Have anyone who needs you?  or work, or demanding hobby?  (apart from us on the forums lol). I forget stuff.  Sometimes it sticks.  How are you going? 

@Adge, i've notices you've got REALLY GOOD on the forums.  

[Former-Member]

Proud of myself tonight,  got all the washing folded and cought up on 2days of dishes.  And got to church and fed & helped dad and the fridge died so cleared out half the laundry clutter,  to get to the spare fridge, cleared it out (all expired) - transferred essentials from internal fridge...  Big job,  half filled otto bin.  Found things i've been looking for. Nobody rang or visited dad all weekend. He notices 😞   Missed a call from my so but he doesnt show me value so im not up for it anyway.  Been pravtically begging for a call since a week ago but he's fobbed me off,  doesnt like talking with me so why bother i guess.  Its hard to know how much to let go. He so dislikes my faith and thats a relatio ship obliterator i feel. I can't  tolleeate anyone trashing my Lord and sabiour and best friend and the only entity whose been with me lovelingly every inch of the way. And its hard cause i want to share eternoty with my S1 and i believe my D1 is already there waiting.  

Hey,  im scared this new grief counsellor is gonna think i habe psychosis cause i told her mum and my girl talk to me.  Better not cause don't need it on my record.  Got this far.  

And worried one of you know me irl and my anonymity has been compromised.  Theres a chance an enemy could use my openness againsr me.  My sister for instance ca be very vindictive at me.  Or yuk,  my x husband...  Does anyone else tjink these things? 

Hope dad sleeps tonight.  So tired of him keeping me up.  He worries me.  Cold out of bed atm.  

to transfer 

[Former-Member]

I swe you there @Determined, @Dec,  

How ya going?  Cold in Melbourne i hear brrr! 

[Owlunar]

Hi @Former-Member

You did a lot today - well done - you did a lot more than I did - we had a really bad storms here today - cold wind and heavy rain - best day to read or watch TV or nap

Hey - your son doesn't have to agree with your beliefs but trashing them is a no-go-zone. I am personally a Christian but I also believe that a person has every right to their religion whatever it might be - and I have stood up for my Lord and I know you are a believer too and it must be rotten that your son is really bad-mannered and rude talking to you like that - 

When my daughter was younger I had to pull her up with a round turn about the way she spoke to me - not about my religion but about some other issues - she learned and your son needs to learn too - and you are right - the Lord will be there for you whatever happens and when ever it happens and nothing can separate us from the love of God - not even crappy minded young people who have yet to find their own feet in life.

I feel really mad at him on your behalf

You have told your therapist about your mother and your girl talking to you so it's up to her but I know I have heard from my son a couple of times - maybe more - its been a long time - but I am totally convinced - I guess I never tried to tell a therapist but it would be uncomfortable - I think psychosis is more complex than that though - and hearing someone speak to you harmlessly - ah - I don't know about the therapist but the fear of having this on a record for the likes of your sister or ex-h finding out - that would be horrible

So it does beg the question of how open we should be with a therapist. We are there to help sort ourselves out - because I keep losing my therapists I am wondering how committed they are to their work but still this sort of thing is supposed to be confidential - it's not a crime to listen to the dead after all

But I understand how creepy that makes you feel - and depends on what the other person believes and if we have different gifts then this is our gain.

When it comes to anonymity I think this site is very safe - I  don't want my sister finding out what I am writing about and so I am careful about details and spread info over a lot of different areas but it would be time consuming for anyone to look and follow this up

Creepy feeling - I know - I don't want anyone reading what I write unless I want them too - I think it's safe here - I really think you are safe here too - just don't give your sister any idea of where you are writing

I understand - sending more hugs

Dec

[Maggie]

@Former-Member I live with my lifeline, a little chihuahua, she's the best. Don't worry about forgetting things, I do that all the time. I do hobbies when I can. No not looking after anyone just me and Furbaby.

Geeze you have been busy. Fridge breaking down etc, messy messy.

I think all those things @Former-Member , but I do have a therapist who's understanding and caring.

Sorry your son treats you like that, it's hard. Take care.

[Faith-and-Hope]

❤️ @Former-Member @Maggie @Owlunar @Adge ..... just swinging past to say goodnight.

[Maggie]

Goodnight @Faith-and-Hope or good morning!!!!????💞💛💕💜