ED recovery just too hard

[The-red-centaur]

Can't I just give up and let my ED finally k*ll me. I'm so tired. In DEM (emergency) again coz I'm so fucked up. Why do I even bother tbh. Shoulda just done the fcking job instead of contacting lifeline. F this shit.

[The-red-centaur]

"The air is cold
I ignored what I've been told
As they tried keep to me here
When I lost control in all those years
The air above my feet
Helps to fall into my final sleep
Beneath my arms, I see the ground
When did all this start, so that I drowned?"
Falling - Our Mirage 

[Zahlia]

Hi @The-red-centaur 

I'm sorry to hear things are really difficult for you right now, I just sent you a private email to check in with you.

You did such a great thing contacting Lifeline for some support (even if you don't feel like you did). 

Hopefully you get some care at emergency tonight

Zahlia

[The-red-centaur]

https://youtu.be/ke43WgVC6N8

[NatureLover]

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@The-red-centaur wrote:
Can't I just give up and let my ED finally k*ll me. I'm so tired. In DEM (emergency) again coz I'm so fucked up. Why do I even bother tbh. Shoulda just done the fcking job instead of contacting lifeline. F this shit.

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@The-red-centaur I've just seen this...am so sorry to hear you were in such a bad way last night. 😞 Good on you for contacting Lifeline and going to the emergency department...

I remember you have an ED appointment tomorrow...do you still feel able to go?

[The-red-centaur]

@NatureLover the appointment was ok. A lot of questions. I'm tired.

[NatureLover]

Thanks for letting us know @The-red-centaur - glad it was OK. 

[The-red-centaur]

I want to run away from life....

[The-red-centaur]

Lately my ED symptoms have been all over the place.

I bumped into someone who new me before my accident. 'you've lost weight, you look good'
why is society so focused on weight. Like do I only matter because I've x kg