A long rave

[Appleblossom]

@eth 

Best of luck today. It sounds like a fair plan. Driving is not something we can have complete control of.  Focus on what you can do and keep open, alert but try not to let the alarmed bit overtake you.

He has a place to go this time.  His father is putting in money and took the lease so its in joint names. SO the challenge will be him managing his life and bills with a little help from family.  His father said the words "I am not setting him up to fail" with a smile. My internal response was... that was what you did for me with the children and the marriage. Set me up to fail. He also said he was giving my superannuation to Josh and I could access it through him. It is guilt money and I did use those words but without anger. Whatever. Its all the games and betrayal and multiple consequences for many people in being in a broken family. Have to let it go or it will eat me up.

Kandinsky - Fragile

[eth]

Hi @Appleblossom  the superannuation arrangements sound potentially complicated to me.  I don't have any, so don't really know how it works, but surely your super should be just that - yours.  I do hope things work out really well for your son and you with the new situation.  

The driving lesson went well overall.  Lots of small details and the need to apply them all at the same time had me almost swamped but I managed.  Just freaked a little when in the last 10 minutes he had me drive on 2 much busier roads to bring us home.  There's no way I had anticipated driving on our busy road so soon.  Just left lane and left turn at traffic lights, but it was a big leap from what we had been doing in a very quiet area.  I got through it without obviously spinning out, but had a lot of big feelings hit the surface after he left.  Glad my support worker was with me and will take her again next time for sure.

One thing we talked about was what he called 'intention anxiety' where the body response to it is to reduce peripheral awareness and even vision.  It was reassuring that he understood it and explained it to me in a way that made total sense.  I think it's one of the major challenges to overcome in order to drive independently again.

Thanks again for the support to all who gave it.  Can't remember who to tag, it's been a big day as I had two other things on after the driving.  Have napped since getting home.

[Appleblossom]

Glad your driving lesson went well.

@eth 

Your post gave me a little think about, in my own stress stryle etc.

Cheers

[Shaz51]

hello @eth , @Appleblossom , @CheerBear , @Maggie 

[Maxi7]

@eth 

What a star you are. Well done. You have been and proven you can. Its still going to be a struggle and a huge challenge. You realky did prepare for this lesson well. Your instructor sound like they are a tru teacher. Keep up the great work. 

[octavia]

ok guys having a rant. had to admit my husband's best friend into hospital today. his immune system is so weak, he can't fight off shingles. it's attacking his brain cells. it's made him to the state that he can't do daily function. he wasn't eating, sleeping, couldn't even drive, he can't remember days. he still thinks it's last Wednesday.  the other scary situation is my step son, he does similar actions to this. he doesn't eat, sleep, and misses days. I've really tried to push him back into psycologist appointments. but his mother has got him into a private one, that gives him all meds he needs. without treating the problem. basically I have so much going on. I don't know what to think, what to do, or how to do it.

[eth]

Good morning @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @Maxi7 @octavia  and anyone else here today.  Thanks again to the people who supported me about the driving, you know who you are.  

@octavia I wish I had some suggestions for you but I'm not finding words easily today.   Don't forget to take care of you too admidst all the care for others.

[eth]

Hi @Gazza75   I've read your posts on another thread about how you are struggling a bit with the weight and fitness efforts you make not getting results.  I've been on psych meds that cause weight gain for years now and gained steadily most of that time, finding it impossible to lose. But stayed compliant with the meds because I have to prioritise my MH and they do keep me more stable than I've ever been.  My sugar levels and insulin get tested every few months and eventually reached the stage that my Dr said I was 'pre-pre-diabetic'.  Some of the meds also change how your body stores fat vs. carbohydrates.  Anyway I've now been put on a med that reduces insulin response and have managed to lose just a little bit so far, but heading in the right direction at last.  Perhaps you could ask about something like that when you see your doctor.  

Take care and hope you have a better day today x

[saturnzoon]

Wel, done @eth , I m so glad your first driving lesson went well and you have a great driving teacher who understands about anxiety as well, the first one is always the hardest cause you don't know what to expect. 

@octavia sorry to hear about your friend,  I hope he can get the help that he needs, and take care of yourself as well especially in hard times we usually forget about ourselves when helping others. 

@Mazarita @Maxi7 @Shaz51 @Appleblossom have a nice safe day.

My day has not started well,I keep picking the wrong decisions when I have to make one, I stuff up on things I do at home,m memory is really getting to me cause I get appointments wrong even when I put everything in my phone I still put the wrong day or time, been crying this morning cause I stuffed up majorly with my money and didn't click to what I was doing whi h I should have known. My worker cancelled today as she's sick. I'm sick of this life and just destroying everything I try.

[Gazza75]

Thanks a lot @eth 🙂 

I'm not getting worse lately which is a win of sorts I guess.

I need to get busy finding another GP, mine won't help Me with much.

Thanks for taking the time to respond, I really appreciate it and has given me some stuff to think about.