A long rave

[Exoplanet]

Bushfires are my biggest fear out here, they're predicting doozies this year. My only
plan {which I've had to take before} is to grab the critters & get out. It's scary stuff!
I sound a bit like your Uncle, only not quite his age . . . good on him for getting to
80 & still living the life he chooses 🙂 & good on you, for thinking of him. I had a
bro-in-law ring me & warn me of a fire once, I was really surprised - we didn't
exactly get on 😉 I think it might have been a case of 'a link to fame', you know, he
knew someone that was in the midst of an emergency. Thing is there wasn't a puff
or sniff of smoke, nor a crackle of sound. I got out & when I got to my sister's, I did
what's very norm these days, I got on google & saw that the fire was less then 5km
from my front door! So even though he does irritate me, I will be forever grateful
for that call.
There's a part of me that wished someone was able to alert me that I was kind of
losing the plot, the last time I did so {it was really embarrassing, I was swearing out
loud at the top of my lungs & I didn't even realize I was speaking out loud at all!}
Then there's a part of me that thinks your bro was just cranky, & not saying it was a
concious thought, but that he used his knowledge of your individual thought &
emotional process, to focus some of that cranky directly at you. Not saying it was
anyones fault, just saying that happens sometimes. . . . particularly when there's so
much going on!
I hope you got that support worker booked! You have come such a long way, your
going to get your independence of travel back!!! 🙂 Lots of love to you @eth 

I care too 

[eth]

Thanks a lot @Exoplanet @Maggie   your support means a lot to me.

[Adge]

[Adge]

It's a Giant Sequoia Tree - one of the largest trees in the world.

You can drive a bus through a hole in it's trunk (if there is a hole)....

[Appleblossom]

Great pics @Adge 

@Exoplanet I worry about you out there all alone.  In some ways it can feel safe, but def get your pets and get out if you need.  Nobody ever wants disaster to strike, but ... take care.

@eth Printed off both feeling wheels and will hand colour them in when I need a calming meditative activity.  There are so many things going in this complicated world.  Its important to have other supports so that socialising does not become crisis management.  "Peer support" sounds like a great "solution" in a solution focussed and box ticking environment, but its not that simple.  The most vulnerable tending the most vulnerable may be a little skewed in terms of resources.

@Maggie Hugs

[cutiepiekitty]

Hi all

Kind of made it today. We had left the sofa and pergola up at church yesterday to use for today so I comandeered that for the service so I could sit with my legs and feet up.

Spent first part of the afternoon in the photo studio marking off names while the girls had their portraits done. Then was helping them all do a craft. Then the mums came and I went back into the pergola area with monkey and also cuddling one of the lion toys in there. Was so exhausted and sore and on the verge of panic that I did not feel I could move. Stayed there while they were cleaning up around me. Just before they finished I started to panic for some reason thinking that my brother would be here when I came home. Took my friend J quite a time to calm me enough so I could make it home. Still feeling quite jumpy and fragile. Told J I wished I had an appointment to ssee B sooner than 2 weeks. She suggested trying to get one but I don't feel right insisting on it after she made a special effort last time to see me. Just realised J asked where I saaw B and I told her. She mentioned leaving a note or something asking to see her if there was a cancellation but I didn't do it. Just could not manage it and did not know what to say with the way I am. Would hate B to think I was using her or panicing over nothing. Hoping I will be able to get a reasonable sleep tonight with the pain and these thoughts about why he came here and what he wants. It is playing on my mind that he knows I still live here and what he may be after.

Hoping the exhaustion I am feeling will take over from everything else. Just wish he had never come and that I could get him out of my mind somehow

[Former-Member]

@Appleblossom 

My acct closes tomorrow all the best

[Appleblossom]

Thanks for letting me know. @Former-Member 

You need to do what helps you.  This site can get difficult.

Carry your music in your heart and sing and play all you need. 

I will also try and take my own advice. lol

Cheers

Nice to have "met".

[Maxi7]

Good Sunday evening  @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @Jadedragon @outlander @Donna1 @Doglover @Zoe7 @Angels333 @Judi9877 @BlueBay @cutiepiekitty @Faith-and-Hope @saturnzoon @Exoplanet @greenpea @Molliex @Maggie @Adge @Teej @Meowmy @Sans911 @Sherry @outlander @CheerBear @Gazza75 @octavia @Scarecrowe @TAB @Maxi7 @Dec @JosRapp @simontemplar @GieEuphoria @Hamsolo01 @eudemonism and an apology to anyone I missed.

I will be spasmodic for a few weeks but please dont think I have gone I have some Family illness to deal with as well as me.

Love to all remember stay strong be the best you can be and thats all you need to be.

[Angels333]

@Former-Member (((💕💕💕)))