A Life of Trauma and Tragedy (Possibly Triggering Content)

[Lee82]

After the snap lockdown they were able to go back to school on Thursday thankfully. 
I am not doing so well my friend thanks for asking me. 
how have you been lately? @Anastasia 

[Anastasia]

I'm so sorry to hear that @Lee82 

I am pleased you had some light in your day catching up with your brother 🤗❣️

I'm ok thank you, just cooking dinner, my boys went to their Dad's and should pull up any moment 🤞🙏

Take care of you, love always 💞

[Emelia8]

Hi @Anastasia ... good to hear that your boys are just about home from their visit with their Dad.  I hope they've both had an enjoyable time with him, and that the possibly inclement weather did not interfere too much with what they were planning to do.

I realise you are serving up pasta for your dinner tonight.  But if you're interested, I am just about to serve the corned beef, onion sauce, mashed potato, green beans and carrot.  Its on the table in 1 minute.  Happy to keep you a serve.

Still raining here.  🌧☔💦

@Lee82 I am really happy for you that you have spent some time with your much loved brother.  He was off work for a time with an injury, so I hope everything is now back to normal for him in that regard.  As for your intense anxiety around our @Former-Member ... I hope you can temper that somehow. I know how hard it is to not hear from her in so long, and to be highly anxious around that.  But she has consistently let us know that she has the best supports around her that is possible.  She will be okay.  And she would not want you to worry unduly about her.  She will be back with us when she feels safely able to be.

Emelia 🤗💞

[Lee82]

Thank you for your support with Izzy. I know I am thinking irrational and am probably over thinking things but I am in such a state over it I just need someone to talk to. I am very emotional and very sensitive at the moment and feeling very much alone at the moment. So it's nice to be able to come here and chat with all my forum family. To help keep me in line and out of a state of crisis because I feel like I am heading that way. 
@Emelia8 

[Lee82]

Enjoy your dinner with your boys hun. I hope you have a lovely night and that your boys have enjoyed their time with their dad. 
tha ka for your support babe: it means a lot. 
@Anastasia 

[Lee82]

I'm sorry @Emelia8  i shouldn't be putting my s**t on you. You have your own stuff going on. I think perhaps I shouldn't be online right now. I should take a break. Time to hide away

[Emelia8]

Its okay @Lee82 ... you are very welcome here anytime. There's nothing to apologise for Lee, I am happy to be here for you. We all have 'our own stuff' going on. The reason most of us are here really. Its true I may be a bit preoccupied right now with personal stuff. But its good for me to be thinking of things other than the twisted thoughts occupying my mind. Otherwise they consume me.

So if its helpful to talk here, by all means ... please do. Dont hide yourself away Lee.

Emelia 💖

[Anastasia]

Thank you for serving me up a meal, delicious!!!! 

The plans didn't come to fruition due to the weather but the boys still had a lovely time with their Dad. Came home happy which is good. Today's picture really resonates for both you and my boy. So much admiration ❣️💕

Love you @Emelia8 

[Emelia8]

Yes @Anastasia .. we were posting at the same time, only different sides of the forums. 😄🌷

Glad to hear your boys had a good time at their dads, despite a weather imposed change of plans.

Still waiting for pic to appear. 

Ems 💞

[Emelia8]

Pic finally came through @Anastasia 

Thank you. 😄💖

It would be nice to think that somehow, others could learn or benefit in some way from my experiences. And likewise your son.

I got a phone call from my psychs receptionist a while ago. My psych will be back this week. And doing an extra day the next few weeks, to try and fit in all the apts she cancelled last week. 

They offered me an apt this Fri. But I will not even be in town due to a neurologist apt for hubby in a town an hour away from here. In the end, I got an apt on Wednesday week, the 3rd March. Too late to be of any benefit for my acute ptsd episode and resulting hyperarousal symptoms. Feeling very let down.

Emelia 😔