Battles

[tyme]

I hear how upsetting that can be @NightFury . At the same time, can some self-talk help? 

THEY are the ones missing out! Not you!

In the past, I was at a school for 10 years. The environment got so toxix that I left. I felt so bad for leaving, yet the next place I went was incredible! It was a dream to work it. Then abotu 3 terms later, I heard about the role I was in. They hadn't made any progress and had to call the department to get helped...

I chuckled inside. 

Tell yourself that this school is not a good fit for you. It's not because you are not a good teacher!

[NightFury]

Thank you @tyme and @Dreamy 

I'm just...

I've been reflecting on everything that's happened in the last 6 months and I'm angry that my ability to continue, to teach, to show up hasn't been acknowledged. I've pushed myself to burn out for this job because I care and I just feel like they don't care. It hurts. 

At the same time, I'm angry with myself because I've done it again - pushed myself for a job that doesn't see my value. 

It's not a good fit for me and I know that. I have known that for a while because I've had to put aside my values and educational beliefs to fit in. 

[tyme]

Hey @NightFury ,

And you've also got to remember that at that time, you were still studying. You probably didn't have the brain poower or energy to be tossed out of your nest and look for another job at that time. 

There's a time and season for everything. We can look back and be angry and upset, or we can look forward and consider how we are going to move forward.

You know what? Having 'known' you for a while now, I can see your growth over the months. You have tackled situations that others could only dream about conquering. You are brave and strong. Remember that! You can conquer anything. 

Find your tribe!

[Dreamy]

Morning @NightFury my sweet, sorry I didn't reply last night. How are you feeling today? 

[NightFury]

Morning @Dreamy 

I haven't made it out of bed yet. I woke at around 7, made a coffee, got back into bed and then fell back to sleep. Oops. 

I have a cold coffee next to my bed. I should get up and feed Luna and myself and make another cuppa. 

As for how I'm feeling...I'm not sure. Less clogged up in the nose than yesterday, but a bit achier in the body. How are you doing this morning? 

[Dreamy]

@NightFury i got up earlier and made a cuppa but took it back to bed where I've just been resting.

You must have needed the sleep, hope you've had a nice hot cuppa now? 

Hope you are feeling better soon sweet. 

I'm feeling dizzy and have a headache so I've been resting but I'm about to get up to get ready to head to the shops. 

[Dreamy]

Hello @NightFury my sweet, how are you feeling? 

[NightFury]

Hi @Dreamy I feel like of heavy and foggy today. Tired, but it doesn't make sense because I've slept on and off for the last couple of days. 

How are you? 

[Dreamy]

@NightFury i understand that heavy and foggy feeling, hoping things feel lighter for you soon sweet. Our bodies need lots of rest when we aren't well so feeling tired is normal even if you've been sleeping off and on.

I had 7 hours of sleep but woke up feeling like I was going to burst into tears. Things are feeling really intense at the moment for me, and those suicidal thoughts are strong (I'm safe). I'm sitting down having a cuppa and trying to do my puzzle. 

@Jynx tagging you over here rather than having to repeat things. 

[AuntGlow]

Hey queens! 💛

How are you both today? @Dreamy @NightFury