Lived Experience Forum

[Maggie]

@Meowmy  ❤️❤️❤️

[BlueBay]

just sitting in the sun I think 

I wish my life was different 

i would start all over again 

and get those haters out of my life

the hate I have for them 

I don't want them in my life 

I hate for what they've done 

I feel the breeze is like my life 

one minute is nice the next it's too much 

I wonder what God thinks when I talk to Him 

is He listening, does He understand 

I talk to him all the time 

and reach out to Him for help

failure guilt hopeless and anger 

is with me 

the scars I see from what I've done 

but no one else knows 

the pain of carrying all this 

is just too much 

end it my mind says 

you'll be at peace 

but then the tiny bit says no hold on to hope for you will see 

I don't know what it is I'm trying to say 

I guess no one knows 

I just hope that someone is listening 

the psin is trying to come out 

the voice is yet to be heard 

the screams are ready 

but the body is scared 

[Eucalypt]

Hi @BlueBay 
Don't you love to write in verse? Creative expression can be a great way to give voice to some of those darker, scarey thoughts and also to those gentle and more tender ones! I'm not sure to what extent your post here reflects your current state of mind or is a reflection about something that you have experienced in the past. 

Take care Bluebay and I encourage you to reach out to your usual supports or to one of the services below if you are needing professional assistance today:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

Samaritans: 135 247

If in immediate danger: 000

[Meowmy]

@Maggie hey Maggie, thanks so much for support. It means so much and helps a lot. That stuff is not good to hold inside. Hope you have a nice afternoon. Take care.

[Maggie]

I ‘m listening @BlueBay . Feeling your pain. I understand more than I’m able to say. 

Sitting with you, if that’s ok. Hearing birds, feeling the gentle breeze. 💕💕💜

[BlueBay]

is that a dig thst I didn't write this in a verse? @Eucalypt  @Former-Member  

I wrote what was on my mind 

whst and how I was and am feeling today

how else was I meant to write it 

[Whitehawk]

Hi @BlueBay 

I am sure that Eucalyptus was not having a dig at you. If you took it that way I am sorry and apologise on behalf of the SANE Team. Please continue to post as you think best.

warmest regards

Whitehawk

[Shaz51]

is that a dig thst I didn't write this in a verse? --- nooo my sister @BlueBay 

I read your verse and @Eucalypt , @Whitehawk  are on your side my darling xxx

and I am here for you too xxxxx

[BlueBay]

Hi @Whitehawk  im sorry I'm not thinking straight. 
I didn't mean to sound mean. 
I'm really sorry 

I'm just not dealing with stuff at the moment 

i wish I could disappear for a while 

@Shaz51 Thankyou xxx

[Shaz51]

Stay with me my Darling sister @BlueBay  xxxx